Celebrating a Milestone (whatever that means these days...) With the Ones You Love

I felt a bit like a fish out of water on my birthday. Here I had a clear idea of what I wanted to feel but when the day actually came, I was nowhere near those feelings. It took a few minutes in each situation to adjust to being the one honored for being alive. I didn't know what to do with the responses of my family, friends and of my boyfriend. I wanted to absorb the affection like a sponge and I wanted to deflect it like a shield. What I did do though, was appreciate the time everyone set aside to be with me. Whether or not I am able to embrace the notion of celebrating my life, I appreciated every second I had with my loved ones. I also was taken back by all of the messages I received via facebook, mobile, email. I was blown away by how many people took the time to write. It makes me wonder what they see that I don't.